March 2012
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The awkward moment when you think you’re over your ptsd but then you’re not.
February 2012
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Past few days have been pretty nervousing because of that happening, also super hypervigilance, and obsessive over dumb things like shopping. I’m like a little paranoid deer with the big eyes that looks at everything. I wanted to ask therapist about doing EMDR therapy but it sounds too extremely terrifying its nervousing me just thinking about it already so I’ll just stop.
Oh, and I...
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I had a really bad “emergency scare” today in which my mom (so lucky she was there) had to escort me immediately to the car and then I ducked down there shaking, and closed my eyes of course, and it was really terrifying. (so lucky my brother was in the car with me) I don’t ask my mom what she saw and she knows not to tell me. I had to go to class right after that and do group...
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The Dark Side of the Signs
houseofaquarius:
Aquarius: Lovely, impartial, humanitarian you. There you are with your amazing ideas, your cutting edge philosophy, your wise objectivity….you are the future. But wait. It’s not all eco-friendly in there is it? Somewhere in your head is a laboratory, a space station or the world wide web. Your interest in others can be a tad chilly when it comes down to one-on-one. You...
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I think I’m..seriously… on my way to a real shopping addiction…… My mom keeps saying no its not, but I know how it feels inside and I can’t go a day without buying something or looking at stores online but then I get stressed out and so I just buy it all to make myself feel better. Or like today I was at the mall, and I was supposed to meet my family at 4:15, but then...
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Valentine's Day for the Single Aquarius
bearingwater:
Okay, so you’ve figured out that Valentine’s Day is a plot by flower shops and greeting card companies to bump up their post-Christmas sales. If you’re part of this “bah humbug” group, gather your like-minded friends and have a Valentine’s Scrooge party. Give a prize to the guest who brings the snarkiest card.
Lol nope! I’m having a great celebratory day of how happy I...
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You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me You have knocked me off my feet again got me feeling like I’m nothing You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, calling me out when I’m wounded
Well, you can take me down with just one single blow but you don’t know what you don’t know
Someday I’ll be living in a big old city...
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tiny-beings:
“When you are practicing Zazen, do not try to stop your thinking. Let it stop by itself. If something comes into your mind, let it come in, and let it go out. It will not stay long. When you try to stop your thinking, it means you’re bothered by it. Do not be bothered by anything. It appears as if something comes from outside your mind, but actually it is only the waves of your...
bopx replied to your post: yeah I just wanted to say here that fantastically,…
*likelikelikelike* for the first time I did my homework without procrastinating!!!
ahahahha I am s-so proud of you! celebration!
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yeah I just wanted to say here that fantastically, for the first time in over a year I’ve been feeling safe enough to be able to go out on my own. I went to the mall, and downtown….and it was pretty cool. a cause for celebration. AND I met a cute dog, german shepherd mix, eeee blush blush~
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iangage asked: Happy birthday! I'm beginning a full-sized painting on Friday- I'll keep you updated. In the meantime- enjoy your day :)
bopx asked: Heyyyyy, Happy birthday!!! sorry its late, I meant to message you yesterday but tumblr was being a butthole >C
im-a-winner-sinner-loser asked: Happy birthday to you! Keep the soul young and I'm sure the body will be influenced :)